an excerpt from a scholarship application:
Three months ago, I gave birth to my son. A few days before delivery, however, his heart stopped beating, and his birth was a stillbirth. The moments that followed when I learned of his passing were the toughest of my life. He was my first child and the anguish my husband and I felt at our crushed dreams as new parents is beyond description. Its intensity, however, is matched by the deep introspection I’ve had to undertake in reevaluating my priorities, goals, and mindset. With the help of my friends, family, and therapist, I’ve learned to ask for help when I need it, set boundaries, take care of myself mentally and physically, and value each second of my life and blessings. My loss has shown me how fragile life is, and how I need to make each moment matter. I’ve learned to let go of things outside of my control and focus on the good and beauty that is present in life. While it is easy to give in to despair or depression, I actively choose to look on the brighter side. This has helped me grow and mature in ways I never thought possible and expanded my heart for greater kindness and empathy. I know what it means to go through deep pain, and the necessity of being kind and supportive to those suffering. I also know what it means to give people space and let them go through their emotions on their own terms, at their own pace. I never thought I’d be able to sustain this kind of pain, but it awakened a strength within me I never knew I had. It has given way to greater self-respect and self-love, which enables me to extend this same love and respect to others.
Three months ago, I gave birth to my son. A few days before delivery, however, his heart stopped beating, and his birth was a stillbirth. The moments that followed when I learned of his passing were the toughest of my life. He was my first child and the anguish my husband and I felt at our crushed dreams as new parents is beyond description. Its intensity, however, is matched by the deep introspection I’ve had to undertake in reevaluating my priorities, goals, and mindset. With the help of my friends, family, and therapist, I’ve learned to ask for help when I need it, set boundaries, take care of myself mentally and physically, and value each second of my life and blessings. My loss has shown me how fragile life is, and how I need to make each moment matter. I’ve learned to let go of things outside of my control and focus on the good and beauty that is present in life. While it is easy to give in to despair or depression, I actively choose to look on the brighter side. This has helped me grow and mature in ways I never thought possible and expanded my heart for greater kindness and empathy. I know what it means to go through deep pain, and the necessity of being kind and supportive to those suffering. I also know what it means to give people space and let them go through their emotions on their own terms, at their own pace. I never thought I’d be able to sustain this kind of pain, but it awakened a strength within me I never knew I had. It has given way to greater self-respect and self-love, which enables me to extend this same love and respect to others.
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